(Part Nine)


(Continued From Part Eight)

In the spring of 2008 a young college student named Thomas was returning home to Los Angeles from Chicago.  Sitting next to Thomas on the airplane was the pastor of a church in the Chicago area named Ronald J. Dickerman.  Pastor Dickerman was headed to Los Angeles to attend the yearly annual meeting of his church.  (Thomas and Pastor Dickerman are people who are real for the purposes of this story but who are not real in real life).  Neither Thomas nor Pastor Dickerman were the types of people who generally got into long conversations with other people on the plane but this night was different.  Thomas and Pastor Dickerman started talking shortly after takeoff and within about 20 minutes Thomas (who considered himself to be a bit of an atheist) was on a first name basis with his new friend, Pastor Ron.  He had already told Pastor Ron that he was very concerned about his best friend back home in Los Angeles.  Thomas had talked to his best friend Jeffrey several times on the phone during the time that he was in Chicago.  It seemed to Thomas that Jeffrey had become somewhat depressed recently.

Pastor Ron asked Thomas to give him some background into Jeffrey's situation so that he could maybe give Thomas some insight into what Jeffrey might be going through.  "OK, Pastor Ron.  Let me first tell you about an experience that Jeffrey had at a summer job last year before he started his senior year of high school.  Jeffrey told me that his boss at the place where he was working did something very unfair to him.  He punished Jeffrey for no good logical reason.  Jeffrey also said that he could tell from sarcastic comments made to him by his coworkers that his boss had bragged to his coworkers about the unfair thing that he had done to Jeffrey.  Jeffrey told me that when this problem with his boss started, he felt so bad that he would have to lay down in bed almost every night when he got home from work.  Jeffrey had felt this same sense of panic in the past anytime a person in a position of power over him was treating him unfairly and when there was nothing that he could do to stop it.  Jeffrey knew that he needed to think rationally and that he needed to snap out of what he was feeling but his underlying feelings of panic that he had kept below the surface and that were now coming to the surface made it impossible for him to think rationally.  Being as he did not know what he could do to resolve the problem he decided to just let the situation unfold and hope that the solution to the problem would somehow appear magically."

"As the days went by Jeffrey noticed that his boss was becoming a little bit more accepting of him and he also noticed that some of the other employees who had been having trouble with a lack of motivation at their jobs were now doing better at their jobs than they had done before.  Jeffrey realized then that when his boss treated him unfairly, it motivated the other employees and the work of the other employees improved as a result.  Jeffrey then realized that his boss must be at least somewhat happy with him and must be happy to have Jeffrey working for him because Jeffrey was indirectly responsible for improving the performance of the other members of the group.  But as soon as Jeffrey started to be comfortable in his new role as the person who was responsible for the improvement in the performance of the group, the other employees started to lose their motivation because they were unhappy that Jeffrey was no longer being treated unfairly.  At this point his boss started to once again start treating Jeffrey unfairly."

Pastor Ron thought about what Thomas had said.  Then he asked Thomas if Jeffrey had ever had a serious relationship with any of the girls who he knew.

"Let me give you an example of what usually takes place between Jeffrey and the girls who he gets to know", said Thomas.  "Last year, Jeffrey was getting to know a girl named Audrey.  One night he was talking to Audrey at a school activity and a boy in his class named Brent came over and broke into the conversation.  After his conversation with Audrey, where Brent broke into the conversation, Jeffrey noticed that Audrey seemed to be more reluctant to talk to him than she had been before.  But he also noticed that she was acting like there was now some sort of an emotional attachment between him and her.  Jeffrey had sensed this sort of thing with girls before and he had always been troubled by the fact that the girls only seemed to feel an emotional attachment with him after they had decided that they wanted to start avoiding him.  What do you think might be going on here, Pastor Ron?"

Pastor Ron thought for a moment and then said:  "Thomas, in regards to Jeffrey's summer job, I think that Jeffrey was correct in his analysis that when his boss treated him unfairly, it motivated the other employees and the work of the other employees improved as a result.  Jeffrey was also right in noticing that the boss was pleased that the performance of the other employees had improved after he bullied Jeffrey.  And I think that Jeffrey's final observation that the other employees lost their motivation when the boss stopped bullying Jeffrey was also correct.  But I think that Jeffrey probably does not realize that what happened when he was bullied by his boss is similar to what happened to him when he was getting to know Audrey and when Brent cut in and interfered.  Just like the manner in which the other employees at the summer job did not want Jeffrey to benefit from the bullying that was taking place, when Jeffrey develops a relationship with a new woman (or a new girl), there will be people who do not want Jeffrey to benefit from his relationship with the new woman.  Throughout his life, Jeffrey's emotional involvements with the women (or the girls) who he knew were probably very weak.  He was able to exchange spiritual energy with the women but he was probably not able to exchange a lot of spiritual energy with them.  Whenever Jeffrey would develop strong enough exchanges of spiritual energy with a woman so that other people were able to notice what was taking place between Jeffrey and the woman, those other people would then start to express their opposition to what was happening and they would try to destroy the relationship before it got strong enough to be of any benefit to Jeffrey.  Jeffrey would at this point be in a worse situation than he was in before he got to know the new woman.  The woman would at this point realize that her relationship with Jeffrey was similar to relationships that he had developed with other women throughout his life.  She would think that Jeffrey must really be strongly attached to her if during the short period of time that she had known him he had developed feelings for her that were similar to the feelings that he had developed for the other women who he had known in his life.  She would misinterpret the situation and she would start telling everybody she knew that Jeffrey considered her to be an incredibly amazing (or an incredibly "hot") woman.  I'm afraid that unless Jeffrey figures out a way to increase his levels of spiritual energy, he will just keep repeating the same pattern over and over again where every relationship he develops with someone of the opposite sex ends before it actually begins."    

"Thomas, I think that Jeffrey's problem with his boss at the summer job and his problem with Audrey and Brent were both indirectly based on guilt.  It might seem strange for you to hear me say that because from what you told me Jeffrey seems to be a pretty nice guy who tries not to hurt other people.  I'd like to present to you an example situation to explain what types of events in Jeffrey's life might have made him into a person who suffers indirectly from guilt.  I'd like to present an example that shows how some people who suffer from guilt may not actually feel guilty for what they have done (or for what they have not done) in their lives.  Some people who suffer from guilt have had their guilt imposed upon them by other people.  Here is an example of how that could happen and how that could rob a person of the spiritual energy that they need in order to succeed in life and the spiritual energy that they need in order to develop good and long-lasting relationships with other people."

"Thomas, most of us have been in situations where we were going through a hard time and then we were very disappointed when the people around us (who we hoped would encourage us during our time of trouble) actually seemed to be happy about our misfortune (thereby making our pain even worse).  When a family is going through a hard time (such as a death in the family or a financial set back) and a new family member comes along, there is a danger that some of the more aggressive and unkind members of the community that the family is involved in will start to put increased amounts of pressure on the family in an effort to hurt the family at a time when they are down and vulnerable.  Some families can handle this type of pressure and humiliation better than others, but it is not easy for anyone to feel negative spiritual energy coming into them from members of their community when they feel that those people should be trying to help them in their time of difficulty.  When a family is pressured in this sort of a way and a new member is born into the family, there is a danger that the family will transfer the negative spiritual energy that is coming into them from the members of their community that are pressuring the family to the new family member.  The other family members are able to keep their equilibrium because they do not have to absorb the negative spiritual energy that was previously coming into them."  

"While the other family members are allowed to develop normal types of spiritual and emotional relationships with other people outside of the family, the new family member who was forced to take on the negative pressure that was coming from the community into the family will develop only limited spiritual and emotional relationships with other people.  When the family realizes that the spiritually and psychologically vulnerable family member is having trouble developing relationships with other people, they might decide to take some action to try to correct the situation.  For example, they might remember back to the pressures that the family was under when the spiritually and psychologically vulnerable family member was born and they might talk to the new family member about those times in an effort to hopefully help them understand what might have led to their spiritual and emotional problems.  They might explain to the new family member how those pressures were so hard on the family that they were afraid that the father (and family breadwinner) might not be able to hold onto his job because of all of the pressures that he was feeling.  The new family member might at this point feel bad that they caused these problems for their family.  They might express to the other family members some feelings of guilt for the problems that they caused for the family and they might apologize for what happened.  Thomas, I don't know for sure what Jeffrey's situation was but I think it is possible that something like this example situation I'm describing might have been what happened to Jeffrey early in life." 



"Unfortunately, when the spiritually and psychologically vulnerable new family member tries to accept part of the responsibility (and acknowledge some feelings of guilt) for the circumstances that they were born into, there is a good chance that the other family members will start to feel increased negative spiritual energy coming into them at the same time that the new family member is starting to feel some new feelings of spiritual freedom and is starting to feel increasing amounts of spiritual energy coming into them.  Now that the new family member is not being used as the scapegoat for the family's problems, the other family members will start absorbing the pressure that the new family member had been absorbing for them.  The other family members might at this point decide that it would be better for them to not accept the apology of the new family member.  The new family member will once again be forced to start absorbing the large amounts of negative spiritual energy that are being sent by the members of the community towards the family.  It may appear to some people at this point that the spiritually and psychologically vulnerable new family member is suffering from feelings of guilt, but they are actually suffering from a lack of spiritual energy caused by being forced to absorb not only the pressures in their own life but also the pressures of other people (the other members of their family)."  











"I appreciate your insights into Jeffrey's situation, Pastor Ron.  I think I understand now what Jeffrey might be going through and why he might be so discouraged.  I have another question for you, if you don't mind.  This is something that I've always been curious about.  I'm a bit of a skeptic when it comes to things of a spiritual nature but I've often wondered how church people sometimes are able to speak in tongues (languages that they never actually learned).  What is actually happening when a person is speaking in tongues in a church service?  How could that be possible?"

"Thomas, I think we have to consider that perhaps we ourselves are the mechanism for apparently supernatural phenomenon such as when people speak in tongues or when a sick person is delirious and they seem to be talking to someone who is not in the room.  I believe that every person on earth communicates subconsciously with other people by exchanging spiritual energy with other people (at an incredibly fast speed) through the Collective Subconscious."  



"In regards to speaking in tongues, I think it is possible that when this type of spiritual event occurs someone at a meeting in their office in Chicago might be communicating subconsciously through the Collective Subconscious with a person who is speaking in tongues in a church meeting in another city.  The person in Chicago might be providing feelings of comfort to that person who is speaking in tongues.  Another person who is in Eastern Europe might also be communicating subconsciously with the same person in the church meeting who is speaking in tongues.  This other person might be providing the foreign language component that is being used in this spiritual event.  There might be several people from different parts of the world participating in the spiritual event with none of them being consciously aware of their involvement in what is taking place.  And I think that something similar might be happening in the Collective Subconscious when a person is sick or dying and where they appear to be speaking to someone who is not in the room.  They may actually be talking to someone who is trying to comfort them through the Collective Subconscious and the person (or people) who are comforting them probably have no conscious awareness of the spiritual event that they are participating in."



"Pastor Ron", said Thomas.  "I know that some people believe that when we die our souls remain in the Collective Subconscious and perform tasks such as helping people who are still living when they take part in spiritual events such as the ones that you have just described.  This seems logical in some ways but it seems like a very cold and limited sort of an afterlife to me.  It seems to me that the afterlife would have to be more fulfilling than that."

"Thomas", said Pastor Ron.  "Spiritual energy travels between us and other people so quickly that we are not consciously aware of it.  For this reason, it seems to us that the spiritual world is very limited and very non-fulfilling because we can only sense, or can only see, the spiritual world in a very limited sort of a way.  But I believe that there are spiritual things below the surface that we cannot see that might be very rich and that might be very fulfilling.  Religious leaders throughout the world and throughout the centuries have presented a very positive picture of what heaven (or the afterlife) would be like.  Of course, no one knows for sure, but I like to think that our activities in the afterlife will not seem strange to us at all and that those activities will be very fulfilling." 

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