Life Experiment

I am trying a seemingly minor experiment in my life. The experiment is very simple. Always, when I go to bed, before I go to sleep I say prayers. My prayers include the Lords Prayer, and a little one that I learned as a child asking God to take my soul if I should die in my sleep, and then one about life's present concern usually asking guidance.

Now when I was young, it seemed like prayers were answered, maybe not right away, but sometimes they were right away. But they always seemed to be answered, occasionally the answer was "no" however. And example of a "no" being when my father moved out. I prayed for his return but it didn't happen.

But in my later years as an adult the general trends in my life seem to have not been positive. It occurred to me that maybe it's because of when I pray. After the day is done, when I'm going to sleep, and then by the morning what I asked has been forgotten about and no longer in my heart or head.

So I'm trying an experiment, and that is to say the Lord's prayer in the morning, and try to think about what it means throughout the day. The idea being to keep it present with me and hopes that will help me find direction.

Now my religious views are kind of strange, I would consider myself an unorthodox Christian, in as much as I believe Christ was real, but my perceptions of Christ and what was intended by his presence here are not congruent with mainstream Christianity. I'll elaborate that is a separate post.