The Nature of Good and Evil...

I am confused about the nature of good and evil. Is it absolute or relative? A hungry cat is chasing a mouse. To the cat the mouse represents a good thing, a meal. To the mouse, the cat represents pain, torture, and death, evil. In human terms good or evil often seems to depend upon the social context. Is evil the absence of good as dark is the absence of light, or is it it's own entity? For example if light and dark were separate things then you could have dark bulbs that give off dark.

I had an experience as a teenager in which I was trying an experiment that allegedly could capture the voices of spirits on tape. The modern equivalent is referred to as EVP or Electronic Voice Phenomena. In the modern version using a tape recorder or digital record, a recording of the ambient is made in an area thought likely to have ghosts or spirits such as a mausoleum or cemetery. Then the recording is played back and listened to for voices other than the experimenters.

When I tried it, I was about thirteen, the protocol was somewhat different, instead of recording ambient noises, a recording was made of white noise, the sound you hear when you tune an FM radio or television to an unused channel. Then the recording is played back and listened to for voices.

I followed the protocol and played the tape back, and I didn't hear anything but I felt something come into the room which was incredibly cold and chilling, and challenging. I thought I could beat it but I believe it's hung around and caused problems for me throughout life.

My experience would tell me that evil is absolute not relative, and an entity in and of itself, not merely an absence of good. Maybe what I'm calling evil isn't though maybe the entity is just like a psychic cat and I the psychic mouse. It seems evil to me because it's drawing my life force. I think that is why it felt so cold; it was sucking the energy right out of me.

I've done that to other people and I know it's not a good thing to do. Every time I eat meat I feel like I've stolen something that belonged to the animal I am consuming. I feel I should become a vegetarian but then I feel drawn to eat meat like a smoker to a cigarette.