Watched The Avengers (the movie with super-heroes not the television series) before going to sleep last night and had a very restless night where I kept dreaming I was a character in the movie, not sure on which side, but was in constant physical battles being thrown up against walls, etc.

I don’t always have movies intrude upon my dreams like that but for some reason it seemed like REM sleep was the only sleep I could get and I’m feeling a bit stressed out over some things, and my shoulder is gimped and giving me pain, the result of an ancient injury resulting from hanging from playground equipment, followed by neglect of not keeping things exercised enough to hold the joint in place, to then being aggravated by moving it in a manner it didn’t like while disposing of brake rotors.

When I awoke I thought I needed to be grounded a bit and I turned to the Bible hoping for some reassuring words or direction, but I opened it randomly to a section of commentary about the profits and it was talking about the book of Obadiah being the shortest book of prophesy, and then randomly opened exactly to the one page in the entire Bible that was that book.

I don’t know what to make of that, what it means to me or about God in general.  People say God never changes, but it seems to me the God of the Old Testament is characteristically much different than the God of the New Testament.  But perhaps it’s a perspective thing, man in the Old Testament is perceiving God from a perspective of not knowing a savior and from the new knowing a savior that gave his life for them.

What I do know is that life is a struggle and I am having some problems focusing and getting things done that I need to get done.  Sleep has been problematic and I’m tired and need a way out of a situation that I’ve created.  And I know it’s not going to happen overnight but it just seems like one thing after another, and sometimes all at the same time.