I need a Daniel, as in the Biblical dream interpreter, to interpret my not being able to get home dreams.
I know two things about dreams in general:
- When they are recurring it means that there is some issue that is pressing to be addressed and I’m not getting it.
- That home represents self.
In this context, I’m distant from home, and trying to get back. I want to understand this because maybe it’s something I can address and then they’ll stop recurring. They usually leave me depressed, not being able to get home reminds me of my childhood home which I never can go back to. My childhood wasn’t all that happy so not really sure why I would want to. I guess there is an appeal to being taken care of and not having real responsibilities.
I do miss my mother who passed two years ago. I’m afraid my fathers time may be limited and I am afraid of that. I miss my children that I have hurt and alienated.
I do wish I could not have a leaky roof, a check engine light in my car, and debt. These things are addressable in time but not immediately. I am a bit of a contradiction in as much as patience I have little of but perseverance a great deal of. You would think the two would go hand in hand but for me they are polar opposites.
The dreams trying to get home sometimes do involve a degree of adventure that isn’t altogether unpleasant.
