Since my release from generously provided state room and board, and while under their watchful eye, I’ve been having these “can’t get home dreams”. Yesterday I had a “can’t get to work dream”, and today I had a dream which sheds light on the interpretation of the others and I think is very positive and marks a new phase of my life.
The dream I had today involved a new building I acquired and made my home. Only parts of it were ordinary living space like bedrooms and kitchen and that sort of thing. There were stages and prop rooms and a large meeting room and museum like rooms. Initially it was a very lonely place, such a big space for just my wife and I. But I started to invite people over and they saw uses for all these new things, various civic groups wanted to use the meeting room, people wanted to use the stages to put on plays, the art room to display their art. And I invited all of these people to do these things. The place became crowded and used and alive.
There were issues, would I be able to afford the property taxes? People offered to pay a nominal fee for the use of these spaces so I thought maybe that would be not an issue after all. Would people clog up the neighbourhood parking their cars? There were big parking lots on either side, not a problem. I think this is my way of believing that God will provide what is necessary.
I know “home” in a dream represents self, and I think what this dream signifies, especially against the backdrop of the old “can’t get home” dreams, is a change in my life where I am changing from trying to get back to my old self, which frankly had a lot to be desired, to a new expansive self who wants to make resources available to people for their own dreams and pursuits, and a willingness to take on something new in terms of self instead of trying to get back to what I was, which may seem comfortable but never was, in fact it was filled with anxiety so extreme that it drove almost every aspect of my life.
There was a sense that I wouldn’t be able to get any privacy with all these people around, but that’s okay, it’s only allowed me to get into trouble in the past. I’m better off with a lot of eyes on me keeping me on a good path.
I have for weeks had a sense that a new vision was just around the corner but it just wouldn’t gel for me, but now I have a good sense of the big picture and kind of like a progressive jpeg, the details are coming into view and focusing.
My Daily Bread had this set of Bible verses for me, in Romans, it seemed very appropriate:
Romans 12:1-8King James Version (KJV)
12 I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service.
2 And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.
3 For I say, through the grace given unto me, to every man that is among you, not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think; but to think soberly, according as God hath dealt to every man the measure of faith.
4 For as we have many members in one body, and all members have not the same office:
5 So we, being many, are one body in Christ, and every one members one of another.
6 Having then gifts differing according to the grace that is given to us, whether prophecy, let us prophesy according to the proportion of faith;
7 Or ministry, let us wait on our ministering: or he that teacheth, on teaching;
8 Or he that exhorteth, on exhortation: he that giveth, let him do it with simplicity; he that ruleth, with diligence; he that sheweth mercy, with cheerfulness.