I am feeling totally overwhelmed emotionally right now and having to cope on my own as my wife just left for work, she’s a night stocker at QFC now, sucks for me but she seems to prefer those hours.

     I just watched Across the Universe.  I was introduced to this film in a humanities class while in prison that was part of a multi-media course.

     When I got out I bought a copy but my Aiwa AV-DV75 receiver bit the dust so could only watch it with my antique televisions horrid sound.

     Just before Christmas, I found an AV55, very similar except only 150 watts / channel instead of 170 watts, also no digital pads on the inputs but otherwise pretty identical, on E-bay for a whole of $25 and it arrived and actually works.

     So now I have sound again and tonight re-watched Across the Universe, and it’s a whole different experience.  I feel like I’m immersed in the situation and what an emotional roller coaster that film is.

     This is the hospital scene after Max is injured in Viet Nam.  My television is a 1999 model rear projection set with a fried convergence card, hence the Chronovision near either edges.  And the interference pattern between the camera pixels and the TV pixels makes for an interesting effect.

     I never get nurses like that when I go to the doctors.  I get some 75 year old who does her best to comfort me while hurting me.  I’m sorry, as she slices and dices.  I probably wouldn’t be as healthy if I had nurses like these.

     Max gets an injection of something…

     Whatever it is, he obviously likes it…

     Anyway, after watching something like this I don’t want to be alone but I have no choice tonight.  The movie is full of tragedy, failed relationships, people killed and mangled in war, but also some high points.  Like I said, an emotional roller coaster.  Now I just got off and am feeling a bit dizzy and queasy.