Not good, test for blood in stool came back positive.  They already x-rayed me looking for masses and didn’t find anything so hoping it’s not cancer.  Might be bleeding in stomach from all the aspirin I’ve taken for pain.  Going to see an gastroenterologist soon, don’t know what all tests they’ll do but hopefully will find the source and it will be something fixable.

     I try to remind myself nothing happens without God’s permission, even Satan had to get permission before tormenting Job and in the end God restored Job.

     I try to remind myself how God looked out for me in prison, from day one although it wasn’t obvious at the time but only in retrospect.  He turned it into a tremendous period of growth for me and so I’m hoping he will do the same with this trial.