When I saw this license plate, I thought it would be perfect for Joe Barnhart and his buzzing friends. Hey Joe (okay it’s an old Hendrix tune), did you know there is a Joe Barnhart Bee County Library in Beeville TX?
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New Blade – No Blood Letting
New blade today, nice fast clean shave with no blood letting. A good start to the day, hopefully the rest of it goes as well. My prayer for today is that God drives my ambitions according to his will. With any luck I can get through a day without making an ass of myself. I do feel more “up” today, not so depressed as yesterday.
It’s 3AM
It’s 3AM… I awoke out of a dream where I was about to become homeless if it were not for a mission that would board me.
I decided to take a look at the Bible verses Our Daily Bread had for me before going back to bed:
Colossians 3:12-17King James Version (KJV)
12 Put on therefore, as the elect of God, holy and beloved, bowels of mercies, kindness, humbleness of mind, meekness, longsuffering;
13 Forbearing one another, and forgiving one another, if any man have a quarrel against any: even as Christ forgave you, so also do ye.
14 And above all these things put on charity, which is the bond of perfectness.
15 And let the peace of God rule in your hearts, to the which also ye are called in one body; and be ye thankful.
16 Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly in all wisdom; teaching and admonishing one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with grace in your hearts to the Lord.
17 And whatsoever ye do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God and the Father by him.
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Bean Truck Dish
I wonder how they re-aim that antenna when they move the truck. Those dishes have to be aimed quite precisely.
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Death and Decay – Birth and Renewal
It seems all around me there is death and decay, death of loved ones, decay of the whole world. Yet there is also birth and renewal, but that seems far removed from me. I know this is a mental state not so much a reality, it is what I am focusing on, and it seems odd for this season, Spring, which really is a season of birth and renewal. I can see the flower buds opening, but at the same time I know they are transient and will be gone soon. I don’t know a good way of dealing with that.
Daily Bread
And this is the Bible verses Our Daily Bread had for me today, relevant but easier said than done:
Colossians 3:1-11King James Version (KJV)
3 If ye then be risen with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ sitteth on the right hand of God.
2 Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth.
3 For ye are dead, and your life is hid with Christ in God.
4 When Christ, who is our life, shall appear, then shall ye also appear with him in glory.
5 Mortify therefore your members which are upon the earth; fornication, uncleanness, inordinate affection, evil concupiscence, and covetousness, which is idolatry:
6 For which things’ sake the wrath of God cometh on the children of disobedience:
7 In the which ye also walked some time, when ye lived in them.
8 But now ye also put off all these; anger, wrath, malice, blasphemy, filthy communication out of your mouth.
9 Lie not one to another, seeing that ye have put off the old man with his deeds;
10 And have put on the new man, which is renewed in knowledge after the image of him that created him:
11 Where there is neither Greek nor Jew, circumcision nor uncircumcision, Barbarian, Scythian, bond nor free: but Christ is all, and in all.
A Lot Down
Actually, I’m feeling a lot down today, really fixated on death and negativity. I don’t want to be but it just won’t leave my head.
I lost my mother a couple of years ago, I don’t know how long my father has left but he feels he’s winding down. I’ve alienated my daughter and my youngest son. I’m really feeling like maybe I would have been better off if I’d died in prison.
I really hate it when I get in moods like this but I don’t know what to do about it. A couple of decades of therapy didn’t eliminate it and I’ve been on many different SSRI’s and other medications and at best they helped very little and only temporarily and had rather serious side effects.
God took the really intense nebulous anxiety away, that which is left is real over real issues and not so intense and I guess I kind of feel like if I didn’t have it I wouldn’t be motivated to do much of anything, but this depressive feeling, the fixation on death of everyone I love and eventually myself, I don’t see any positives in that, and yet God left me with that.
Oh Very Young
I’m feeling a bit down and a little anxious this morning. I went to sleep with someone talking about a death as a transition and what lies beyond. I don’t feel like I’m done with this world just yet but maybe it feels it’s done with me. For some reason, Cat Stevens song, Oh Very Young, is stuck in my head:
Oh very young
What will you leave us this time
You’re only dancing on this earth for a short while
And though your dreams may toss and turn you now
They will vanish away like your daddy’s best jeans
Denim Blue fading up to the sky
And though you want him to last forever
You know he never will
(You know he never will)
And the patches make the goodbye harder still
Oh very young
What will you leave us this time
There’ll never be a better chance to change your mind
And if you want this world to see a better day
Will you carry the words of love with you
Will you ride the great white bird into heaven
And though you want to last forever
You know you never will
(You know you never will)
And the goodbye makes the journey harder still
Oh very young
What will you leave us this time
You’re only dancing on this earth for a short while
Oh very young
What will you leave us this time