Even though the lane this person wanted to be in was totally full of traffic, he couldn’t just wait in the driveway for it to clear, he had to bolt out in front of me, make me pounce on the brakes, and block my lane. Gotta love it.
Raymond, my 24 year old unemployed play video games until 5AM son and our Doberman, Mei. Raymond prefers not to have her company but Mei knows he is a sound sleeper and she, like every Doberman we’ve had, is sneaky.
In prison church we frequently sang this hymn, and knowing the history behind this (which is briefly outlined at the beginning of this video), I couldn’t help but feel a great sense of hope whenever we did. Even now after I’ve been out for more than three years, many things feel strange, many things feel difficult, I’ve lost my mother, I don’t how much longer my father will be around, I am estranged from two of my children, I’m not legally allowed to contact one of them, all of this is hard, but in this hymn and in the Lord, I still find hope.
If you look closely at the log in the lower left of this picture, you can see it started out as two branches and merged into one after about three years of growth. There are initially two sets of growth rings but they become one after about three years.
Had a dream where I saw many different time lines for my life, alternate “me”s if you will, displayed as two dimensional slides in a 360 degree layout, in an otherwise totally dark void, like the old slide projectors with the rotary slide trays. I had the impression I could pick a different one and continue my life on another time line. So I tried to pick one that I hadn’t screwed up quite so badly but wasn’t able to and so returned to the time line I was on.
My wife works nights, but has been on vacation and her hours, my son Raymond’s hours, and other factors are making sleep very difficult for me (which is why I ended up taking a nap yesterday afternoon). I take antihistamines for allergies this time of year, and I’ve already adapted to them which makes most over the counter sleep aids useless. I seem to have developed a tolerance to melatonin as well and it no longer seems effective. It’s hard to be productive, especially when it involves complex work as this often does, on inadequate sleep.
Became very drowsy at 4 PM. I was falling asleep at the keyboard. So rather than have keys impressed into my forehead, I opted to take a nap, something I rarely do. The phone had been dead all afternoon and I wasn’t being productive so it seemed like a good idea.
During my nap I had a dream, I had travelled to San Francisco for several weeks to participate in a project as a contractor. There were difficulties communicating back with home base, there were difficulties communicating with the people I had contracted with. I went to a meeting and didn’t have all the information I needed.
Upon wakening my head was flooded with ideas on how to solve a lot of these problems, not just for myself but for my customers here, and also for some that I’ve lost because we didn’t have a good solution in place.
This is a little different than how my vision of the original Eskimo North came to me, in it, I saw a lot of what was to come in my dreams and then created it. Here I’m just being made aware of problems and then creating solutions consciously upon awakening, although recently I had also had dreams of the former kind.
It is good, I feel a renewed sense of direction, energy, conviction. It’s going to involve a lot of learning, and so did the original Eskimo. I’m a little worried about communicating too much of the details before it is at least somewhat implemented.
And who can’t identify with this? Everybody likes to think the other persons sins are greater. This is one of Satan’s favorite lies. I find it easy to be judgemental of others even though my own sins are great. Remembering when God lifted a huge burden off of my shoulders with his forgiveness helps me remember it isn’t my role to judge others, but God’s. That’s not always easy as my nature tends to be rather cynical and intolerant at times, actually more often than not, especially when it comes to people in positions of authority. And I know this isn’t right but it’s a constant struggle I deal with.
Luke 18:9-14King James Version (KJV)
9 And he spake this parable unto certain which trusted in themselves that they were righteous, and despised others:
10 Two men went up into the temple to pray; the one a Pharisee, and the other a publican.
11 The Pharisee stood and prayed thus with himself, God, I thank thee, that I am not as other men are, extortioners, unjust, adulterers, or even as this publican.
12 I fast twice in the week, I give tithes of all that I possess.
13 And the publican, standing afar off, would not lift up so much as his eyes unto heaven, but smote upon his breast, saying, God be merciful to me a sinner.
14 I tell you, this man went down to his house justified rather than the other: for every one that exalteth himself shall be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted.